Title: the promise by: leovee castromayor

When I got home that night from my office, my husband served a dinner. I held his hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. He sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in his eyes. Suddenly, I didn’t know to open my mouth. But I had to let him know what I was thinking.”I want a divorce”. I raised the topic calmly.

                He didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead he asked me softly, “why?” but I stayed quiet and this made him angry. He didn’t finish his dinner and walked directly into our room. I know he wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage but I could hardly give him a satisfactory answer. The reason behind is that lack of communication and time between us that’s why I fall in love to someone.

                In the morning, I gave him my drafted divorce agreement which stated there that he could own our car and our house. He only glance it and then tore it into pieces. He cries in front of me. I felt sorry but he become stranger to me. The next day, I came home late and found him writing something at the table. I was so tired after an event full day with someone that’s why I went straight to sleep. In the morning he presented me his divorced condition. He didn’t want anything from me. He only requested that in one month only, we both try to live as normal life as possible. His reason for this condition is simple. Our son is chosen to be one of the representatives in an international math day Olympics and he didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage. Lastly, he requested that we should recall our sweet moments before we got married. So, for me to get that divorce I want, without any conflicts. I agreed that in one month we became sweet all the time and our son really appreciate it.

                One night, we are in bed, as he closed his eyes he said softly, “don’t tell our son about our divorce”. I felt so upset. While he was in deep sleep I looked at his face. I remembered everything about past, our happy moments and or promises during our marriage that we love each other till death  do us part. My tears slowly flow in my eyes. I felt so much pain! I started hated myself for what I had done to him. I want to hug him to say sorry and told him that I don’t want to continue our divorce anymore but my mouth couldn’t speak.

                In the morning, I woke up early ad went to the church. After that, I went to the mall to buy a cake for him. I realize that I still love my husband. We can still fix our marriage and everything will going to be okay just like before. That evening, I arrived home, cake I my hands and a smile on my face. I run upstairs and I found out that my husband was dead. I didn’t know that he was fighting a brain cancer. That moment my worlds suddenly stop! I cried a lot! I felt so much pain and regrets. Its too late.

                He knows that he would die soon and he wanted me to save me from whatever negative reaction from our son. He wanted that in the eyes of our son, I’m a loving mother. It teaches me a big lesson in life that we must find time to be your spouse friend, communication and time between marriages and do little things for each other that build intimacy.